If we fear, why not understand? Written by Julius. , Friday, March 11, 2011 at 12:55 PM, in Labels: lesson.

With permission, I had been glad to tell you guys a story.

Long ago, my friend (let's call him X) got involved with a girl (we will call her Y). They were classmates for some years, together they build a great friendship.

Eventually, Y falls in love with Z but Z already like someone else and soon find himself a girlfriend. Unfortunately, the girlfriend dumped him for another guy. Z suffered a mental breakdown. Y was there cheering on him and Z finally able to somewhat let go of his past. By Grade 12, Z found out that he has fallen in love with Y.

Z, still afraid of relationship decided to go on a try, he confessed. Things were great for two of them but their relationship was not told by many people. Only a selected few know about their relationship. The continuation of undisclosed relationship coupled by Z's being quite popular with girls had cause Y felt insecure. She proceeded to ignore him.

As the consequence, their relationship was never the same. Z no longer hold long conversation with Y and he was confused by her action. This continued until the Z's exam was over. He firstly thought the cold treatment was because of his exam. But it's not, nothing changed and he knows that girl has changed of heart. Z was sad and angry but he decided to let it be.

Many months later, the girl finally let him know the truth, feeling insecure and she decided to make the guy angry so the relationship will end. She thinks it is a better way.

Right, end of story. Now is time for my personal opinion. I think both of them at fault (that is what I told him haha) because the guy's action makes the girl felt that way and at the same time, the girl should voice her fear to him. I think that for a couple should tell us other about what they feel for everything that makes them uncomfortable (maybe not everything but still...well, decide with your own discretion). The guy voiced his fear but the girl in feeling insecure, she did not tell him so.

Why she's feeling insecure? Because that guy said he doesn't know if he can accept another relationship but begged for time. I think it's not enough for the guy to say just that. I do not want you guys to think I am supporting the guys only but I just feel it is unfair for the girl to do that to him.

So, in the end, the guy can only be just friend with the girl. He had moved on but still gotten afraid. Emotional scar is scary and I think everyone knows how. What is not yours, is really just not yours. We can blame this and that but in the end, the finger should point towards ourselves because we did not try to understand each other.

I have my fear toward relationship and I think it is not abnormal, we got to seek improvement to ourselves and must learn from experience so that in future this kind of thing will never happen again.

Well, this is part of life, we won't know until we feel it.

Adult. Written by Julius. , Thursday, March 3, 2011 at 2:06 PM, in Labels: issues.

At times I must wonder why certain adults can say since they are older and thus can do better than the younger ones. When in fact, they are not at all, well maybe.

They said children are immature. But when in fact, it's just experiences that grow with you, not your mind.

And, that makes me sick.

Granted, they are better than us. But that doesn't mean we are equally bad. Our level may be different. But that doesn't mean our level is at the lowest rate. The adults can say they can think more ideas and do more benefiting programs but when in fact the younger ones can as well.

The adults are equally irresponsible as to any child will be. So, don't think highly of yourself and give your respect to the younger ones if you want them to respect you in return.

Give and take. That's a real adult.

No. More. Just. No. More. Written by Julius. , Wednesday, March 2, 2011 at 6:47 PM, in Labels: random.

No more online for more than 2 hours per day

No more manga-ing

No more drama-ing

No more procrastinating

No more song/lyric writing

No more gaming

No more saying tired, tired.

No more saying "I'm sleepy"

No more playing around

Yes, because revision and exam are coming soon.

Now say, I will rock ya!

Next stop. Written by Julius. , Tuesday, March 1, 2011 at 2:34 PM, in Labels: random

Revision starts this Saturday.

Yes, the busiest time starting soon, and yes, I found myself at the same base like last year. I am really that loves to procrastinating. My, my, what a bad habit of mine. Still, I must move even though people might say it's late. Must not and shall not give up. I shall start my training lesson as well. Trying to be discipline here.

I finally went to Jogoya (a Japanese Buffet restaurant) with my college friends. The food I must say the standard is quite around my expectation. Well, maybe it's my first time going there but really, all kinda suit my taste bud. It's really a good experience for me and the rest of my friends, too (all of them were also first timer)
The ice creams, yes, Haagen Dazs and New Zealand Ice Cream were great! There got a lot of good qualities/expensive food to enjoy, definitely recommended to go.

Right, I just downloaded and using Google Chrome, thanks to many recommendations. I found it pretty nice, the screen is enlarged, pretty nice to view, especially while reading some manga. Trying download it, it's pretty easy to install, so give it a try. And, oh, one of the good featured is that it will check your spelling for you (the wrong word, you can see it with a highlight)

As for my song writing work, I must put it for a stop. I pretty much spent most of the time on February on lyrics. Yes, occasionally, I still feel like lyric. Writing is such a beautiful thing because you can express your feeling while you cannot say it out with your voice. They said love letters are out of date but heck, it seems more sincere in some way.

My new dog, Hazel, seems to diagnosed with diabetes. Hopefully with further diagnosis will indicate otherwise.

Alright, done writing. Gotta move along.